They say that do something for 40 days and it becomes a habit. For me some things take longer or faster. Be absent from my life for a good 2 weeks and I’ll be getting used to not having you around. Take lent for example, 40 days of no meat for me, and I’ll actually hesitate to eat meat after the 40 days, because I’ve been without it for 40 days. This year, I decided to skip lent for a few reasons. But I’m not going to touch on that.
It should take about 40 days for a habit to go away too, right? All we have to do is do the opposite for 40 days. I do this whenever I need to quit something. Sometimes, I fall back into it even after 40 days of sobriety. And no, I don’t take drugs or smoke cigarettes. However, I do the occasional shisha.
My friends sometimes put their mind into quitting some bad habit like smoking or trying to eat healthy and it goes well. Then. they’ll have a fallback, like a minute of temptation and when they do fall, they just give up. I know somebody who wanted to abstain from alcoholic beverages for Lent and the minute that person had a fallback, the person just gave up. And another friend, the same thing with eating healthy and exercising and another friend with cursing.
People fallback sometimes, it’s never easy to just quit something for some people. Do it gradually. Do it slowly. If you have a fallback, it’s alright, you can brush it off and get back on the horse. I just have wayyyyy too many friends who smoke and they intend on quitting it but the minute they have a fallback, they just quit trying to quit smoking altogether. And another few more months or years, they get back on the horse, and start from ground zero. To these people, whenever they say they wanna quit, it’s a laughable matter because you know they’re just going to quit trying to quit later. How do we ever take people like this seriously if they’ve done this so many times.
40 days isn’t enough to just quit the habit. 40 days would be the toughest days and after 40 the journey becomes a little easier. After 40 days of sobriety, doesn’t mean you wouldn’t have a fallback.
In my case, my habits were always people. Sometimes, I might have not seen them for over 2 years or 5 years, and I’m used to not having them around anymore. But sometimes, you miss. You know? Sometimes, you find yourself wishing you didn’t fall out like that, sometimes, you miss having fun and talking to them. Sometimes, you wonder what it’ll be like if you were still friends with these people. Like everyone else, I have fallbacks, awake at ungodly hours, just missing them, the comfort I once knew. But it doesn’t mean I want to risk getting myself into relationships that I know I’m better off without. You miss. It’s normal. You havea few fallbacks. It’s normal. You fall, and you get back on the horse.
10 months sober, I must admit
Just because you’re clean don’t mean you miss it
10 months older I won’t give in
Now that I’m clean I’m never gonna risk it-Taylor Swift, Clean
Anyways, till next time lovelies,
Erizandria.
